It seems like the older I get, the more I feel I don’t know. As most of you are aware, I’ve battled knee injuries since May. A self-proclaimed fitness influencer, I’ve questioned my expertise during recovery. It’s been 7 months since I’ve been able to run, squat, lunge, or jump. If you haven’t noticed, these exercises made up the bulk of my workouts.
The physical pain has been limited, but the emotional turmoil has been strong. I know this issue is insignificant compared to what so many people are suffering through. But I’ve felt a loss of identity and a rush of anxiety because of it. I’ve been “that fit girl” for so long that I feel like I’m not only letting all of you down, but also the people in my life by not being as physically fit as I normally am. I’ve questioned continuing this blog and the ebooks I’m so close to finishing. I worry about why I haven’t fully healed yet and tend to blame myself. How can I inspire others to be their healthiest selves when I, myself can’t practice what I preach? What if my body changes during this process? What if I lose all my muscle and/or put on weight? Will anyone want to listen to my advice if I don’t look a certain way?
And then it hit me. What I preach is self-love and kindness. What I preach is listening to your body. What I preach is doing everything you can with what you have. What I preach is accepting your body no matter what it may look like. What I preach is to love every stage of your journey. What I preach has nothing to do with what my body can do or what I look like. So why should I base my own self-worth, influence, or success on either of these?
As I find my emotional center, I’m going to help you find your physical center! 😉 Oh, you thought you’d be out an informative, helpful, and uplifting blog post today?? Girl, then you don’t know me. There’s one thing I won’t let my personal struggles get in the way of – helping as many women as I can find strength physically and mentally (while I do it right along with you)! I’m not perfect, and neither are you. But that doesn’t mean we stop fighting to be better every day. I’ve created a 20-Minute Home Core Workout that is going to light your metabolism on fire, help you stand taller, and build a strong center.
Insider tip – I shoot my workouts in batches. Yep, all the workouts you’ve been seeing lately on Life in Spandex were shot pre-injury! I appreciate all your support as I search for my center.